Mental Illness

Anxiety and Depression… Yikes!!!!!

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What can I say about this topic, I can go on and on and on. I have been suffering from anxiety and depression since I was 9 years old. At that time, I couldn’t understand what I was going through or even why. All I knew was that something was wrong. I couldn’t explain it. I can remember times where I just wasn’t acting like myself. The worst part is that I had to go through it alone. My mother wasn’t patient enough to take the time out to find out what’s wrong, let alone ask me how I’m feeling. I was dismissed. Like I was nothing.

Now I’m 28, and I still feel my anxiety hasn’t gotten better, neither did my depression. Through my years of life, I have had my highest of highs and lowest of lows. There are times when I look back and think “What the hell was I thinking”. Life didn’t come with a manual.

Now as of today, I do take medicine (anti-depressant) and I feel it helps to a certain extent. Some techniques that I use are very simple. These are just a few examples of what I do that can help ease my anxiety and depression. One thing that can help is when your feeling overwhelmed, go outside and take 3 big deep breaths. Fresh air really helps the body, plus being outside is more of a free setting and you don’t need to feel closed in. Another technique that could help is taking a hot shower. Letting the steam hit your body, opening your pores and it also helps you breathe better. I have many more techniques if anyone would like more. NO ONE should ever be ashamed to say they have anxiety and depression.

At a point in my life, I felt ashamed by saying out loud that I have anxiety and depression. Its not something to easily talk about, especially to those who have never been through it or even has an understanding of what its life. The best way I can explain it is that You can’t pin point exactly what is wrong. When someone ask what’s wrong and what’s making you feel that way, you cant explain it. You cant give a definite answer cause

WE DONT KNOW. If only it was that simple right, but there is no simple answer. To be honest, there is no simple solution. Another thing that people should keep in mind is that, everyone doesn’t cope the same way. People don’t grieve the same way. Everyone is unique and diverse. I just hope that the tips I give and the information people look up, it will be enough to start to get the help they need , that they wont ask for. I am the type of woman who doesn’t ask for help, who doesn’t like to talk about my problems. I keep everything bottled inside. But since 2018, the year I met my husband, he has been my biggest supporter. He takes the time to understand me. He knows when I’m not acting myself, and he knows when something is wrong. I appreciate my husband so much and I am forever grateful to have him in my life.

Last year, I lost my grandmother July 4th due to lung cancer. A few months later, I lost my great grandmother to old age and fluid around her heart. I lost two wonderful women in my life too close together. I thought I was going to hit rock bottom. I didn’t think I was going to be able to live life the way I was. Those women meant so much to me. They practically raised me because my mother wasn’t really in the picture. I am a grateful granddaughter to have had the best 2 strongest women I know in my life guiding me. I miss them more than anything and I wish I could have the opportunity to talk to them again, to hug them again, just to hear their voices. But I know in my heart they are always with me. I am an ordinary woman with the same problems many women face. I hope that women can see having depression and anxiety is not something to be ashamed. Embrace it, show others that they are not alone and maybe we will have a positive outcome on suicides.

Suicides happen everyday, happens to the ones who you could have never thought to have a problem. Examples are Robin Williams, Marilyn Monroe, Vincent Van Gogh and so many more. Lets change that. One word, a few sentences, a hug, that’s all it would take to stop someone from ending their life. Lets stop being ashamed and show people that they aren’t alone. We can help. We can make a difference. If you or anyone you know is having a hard time and needs help, you can help. or send me a message. You are not alone!!!!!


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